Scream. Shout. Live Your LIVE!

exhausted. sluggish. i wish i could find words describe how i feel and look right now. (too tired to think) i look really terrible and may i just add how i just recovered from a mild sore throat? and i think my mum and frens are tired of me talking about my work work work, which keeps me in office after 5pm and yes, i’ve been going back from office every night at 8pm. yesterday nite was a record when i left office at 11.30pm. AND IT WAS A SATURDAY! urgh. feel like puking my work out.

today meeting whole day. at some points i was really going fall sleep (PPLS, I’M NOT AN ENGINEER, DON’T BORE ME WITH TERMS LIKE, PFE, DFE, FIP, OSC, EPP PROJECTS. WHT THE HELL IS ALL THIS!) my boss ask me have i finished the template that i was supposed to present on wed. HUH. i totally forgot. so i told her sorry i have not done it. i think she knew. she knows how much work i have to do and i think she’s sorry that i am supposed to be doing everything. i don’t blame her. she has as much as work as i am as well. i just wish someone could swop in and take half of the workload that i am doing now.

nah. im just tired and cranky does not mean i am weak. i can do it. i will, i can and i must.

I love Poppy’s. It is even better after the renovation. I remember celebrating Leesh’s bday there once and it was pack to the max. Urgh, sweat, urgh, smell, urgh, puke. Yea. It was just bodies everywhere and we had to escape to the narrow alley for a breather.

Photos courtesy of Poppy Collection

I will never get this shot because as always, it’ll be full by the time we went.

Me, Sanj and Leesh went in around 11plus and were led to a table which is ok-ay la for 5 people. But some old uncle came and suddenly took our table saying (what I think was) “I’m OPENING BOTTLES OKAYY” and so we were led to another smaller table, by the walkway. -_-” But then Sanj had a lovely view of a couple of lenglui, so he didn’t really mind. Me and Leesh came up with this master plan to snatch their table and bottles as Sanj tackle them girls.

Haha. We never did anyways. I had raspberry vodka, which was sooOooOoo light. Leesh’s rum was halfway there.. and we had beer too. Hah. Mistake. Kept us burping all night. I already know what’s going through Sanj’s mind…. “Order bottle!!” Haha.. But we didn’t. Wished we did.

Being a camwhore ourselves… how can we NOT take any photos rite?? So here it is..

Me and ex-roomie

The clubbing kakis

Still chio and haven’t sweat yet.

Then housemates arrived.

Post clubbing : tired and exhausted.

Conclusion is… I had so much fun! Thanks Sanj, Leesh and housemates for the fantastic night! Will do it again when I’m down in KL next time.

But next time we open bottles yea. hehe.

After starting work, I realised that there are times when you need to prioritise what’s critical, what’s important and what can be held back till a period of time before following up on it. I am generally nice to everyone who came with a request.. Just ask and I’ll try to help.

But recent events led me to be more selective towards, urm, people’s request. I can’t be obliging everyone, which btw, made my life hell for awhile. After doing some re-prioritising on my work, I can finally take a breather. Oh that’s when life took my lemon away and hands me more shit.

I’m going to Kuching next week for the Rainforest Music Festival. Was really psyched up for that event as I’ve never been to Sarawak and also Rainforest! But then my seniors told me I have to submit the draft for partners by 15 July and the input will only be finalised on 9th July, meaning it’ll give me time from 10th onwards to work on the 6 contracts! Plus I’ll be away 10-13th makes things even more difficult for me. Sigh. I know my boss is RELI RELI RELI reluctant to release me but luckily I’ve been doing so far so good that she said its ok-ay for me to go. She jokingly asked me to bring my laptop over… oh man. For awhile I thought she was joking.. den I realise she might just be serious. ERM. I’m so not keen to bring lappy over there… can u imagine.. go out makan.. bring the big bagpack along. Aih. Not to mention the weight of 14″ lappy makes my neck muscle screams and curses me, and do I actually have the time to do any work?

Sigh. One consolation is that I’ll be travelling alot.. in June itself I went to KL 4 times and offshore once. It is a consolation to be out of office once in awhile (it makes you look extra important and hence cooler haha, nah just kidding) and socialise with friends in KL at the expense of the company! Btw, Isetan is having member’s day sale 3-5th July.. I’m so tempted to go but I can’t.. and I don’t really wanna spend $$ as well…. as our dear PM said.. “UBAH CARA HIDUP” hahaha.. still cracks me up when I think abt it.

Will be signing off now. Till then (when I’m not that busy), bye~~

Was talking to a junior of mine.. just thought this conversation is reli cute.

Kee Hui:
if in kl need to curi besi at night la to survive
haha

Qi Hua:
hahaha
den in kerteh wanna survive i go curi what?
hehe

Kee Hui:
curi lembu lo
got lots of lembu there
kan??

Hahaha. Mebe I shud seriously think of this option.

Have you ever felt suffocated? Not because of you not having enough freedom or what la. I’m so over that stage.

Right now, I feel so tired of working. Work that seems to be neverending. Initially my work started out with a few meetings, preparing the pack and chasing people for information. Then it suddenly started piling..dept’s accountant.. I’m suddenly the focal person for toooooo many projects! Its more than I can handle actually… and hearing the oh-not-so-nice words from others made my day worse.

Tears start rolling down. I hastily wiped it, incase my colleagues saw it. The worst part of my job is that I have to put up a cheerful front although I’m very very stressed out within. With the amount of work piling, I was constantly on my boss’s toes, asking her what to do, she reminding me what I have not done and others telling me what I’ve done wrong!

A friend of mine told me, “Crying brings you nowhere.” He made me rethink my situation.. and laughed about his after comparing our jobs. I’m really glad to have spoken to him at the moment I felt down. He’s truly an optimist after my very own heart. I wished I could be as optimistic as him in difficult times. I know the next coming weeks, I’ll be haunting in the office till late. Sigh.

I will be going to Bekok A tomoro with the HSE team tomoro. Will not think of work tomoro! Now, now, that’s a happy thought

What would you do if you wake up in the morning only knowing that you’re given the day off?

Our answer to it? Go WATERFALL!

Hehe. Well the girls started the day off with a nice cuppa coffee in the most famous chinese kopitiam in Kemaman, Hai Peng. The coffee is so irresistably good. Kesian Helwa cuz she can’t drink it.. (fyi, she’s pregnant). The half boil eggs taste sooooo delicious (yes, i started eating it again ;P ) and their kaya bun is just amazing.

Then we called up the guys to go waterfall in Cemerung.. it’s around 70km from our hse in Kerteh.. Reli reli far, considering we dont’ reli know the way there.. And so we drove. And drove. And drove. Till the guys kinda gave up on us and stopped to ask for directions. Wei, we girls oso nvr stop to ask, u guys pulak stop so many times……

Anywhoos. After 2 hours of driving, we found the place. It is deep in the heart of Terengganu and guess what, there’s zero reception here. Maxis, Digi, Celcom all tak laku here. Luckily we found the place, or not we all mengamuk in the car. Despite the ulu2 place, the place does look pretty clean. And after changing.. off we go to the waterfalls!

Hamster, Alw, Kisi and Kuchi

Target Hamster!

Kuchi and Hamster

Love this shot. Puchi, Alw, Kisi, Hamster, Jes, Renu

Exhausted gang =D

Hehe. It was really a fun fun fun day. Was pretty exhausted after the trip.. but that was not all.. we head straight (ok la we did mandi first) to Kijal for dinner… And love the photos too.. Thanks Puchi for the photos.

FYI, these nicknames are real u know. Hehe.

I’ve been tagged for this meme ages ago.. but didn’t have time to do it. This week has been pretty hell for me… with so many impromptu requests, impromptu training AND impromptu holiday! So here I am, in the weekend (after a looooooooong sleep, of course), I managed to come out with the list. BTW, thanks ohkulala for tagging me. I totally love this meme. So here it is:

Rules of the tag: Various situations are given. You have to come up with a song (or a couple) that aptly describe those situations in YOUR life.

Opening credits: Baby Bash ft Akon - Baby I’m Back

Waking Up: Hit Me UP by Gia Farrell

Average Day: Better In Time by Leona Lewis

First Date: See You Again by Miley Cyrus
–Love it when she sings this
When you called and ask to see me
Tomorrow night,
I’m not a mind reader,
But I’m reading the sign
That you can’t wait to see me again

Falling in love: Can’t Take My Eyes Off You - Muse

Love scene: The Look of Love - Diana Krall

Breaking up: The Ice is Getting Thinner by Death Cab for Cutie
– I love the opening of the song
We’re not the same, dear, as we used to be.
The seasons have changed and so have we.
There was little we could say, and even less we could do
To stop the ice from getting thinner under me and you.

Getting back together: Come Home by OneRepublic
–And the chorus of this one too
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long

Secret love: Darude - Estacy

Life’s ok: Could Be Anything - The Eames Era

Mental breakdown: Nick Cave and The Bad Seeds - People Ain’t No Good

Driving: Please Don’t Stop The Music by Rihanna
– I’m serious. I can’t drive without the music!

Learning a lesson: Killa by Cherish
– Recently I’ve been learning alot from work.. work’s been piling up and since we’re understaffed, daily working has been like terjun into waterfall… Anyways, in short it’s been a KILLA! -_-”

Beep thought: What I’ve Done by Linkin Park

Partying: Ten Seconds to Sunrise - Tiesto

Happy dance: Accidentally In Love - Counting Crows

Long night alone: Mercy - Duffy

Death scene: Farewell by Rosie Thomas

Closing credits: Take Me The Way I Am - Ingrid Michaelson
– My pujamantra these days. Just love the simplicity of the song and the way she croons “You take me the way I am..”

I’m not tagging anyone as usual. Just asked Audrey if she blogs and she’s like, “haven’t updated for awhile”. Sigh. Alrighty. Gotta go.. hsemates ajak go pizza hut in Kemaman.. yummy!

In life, don’t just trust people who change their feelings with time…
Instead trust those people whose feelings remain the same even when the time changes…

We make them cry who care for us…
We cry for those who never care for us.
And we care for those who will never cry for us.
This is the truth in life..strange but true,
Once you realise this, its never too late to change.

Never explain yourself to anyone.
Because the person who likes you doesn’t need it,
And the person who dislikes you won’t believe it.

Don’t let someone become a priority in your life
when you’re just an option in their life..

Remember you are born to live.
Don’t live because you are born!

Don’t go the way life takes you..
Take life the way you go!

Over the same sea, on the same winds;
A ship sails in one direction, another in opposite.
It is not the wind that decides which direction the ship goes;
Its the sails; how they are tied and how they are manoveured;
Similarly, it is not fate that decides where your life takes you.
It is all about how you take life and where you take it to.

Today’s yet another day at work.. Work is as usual the same… Boss is not here so things are more relax Besides doing my budget for the department accounts next year, today I’m basically free. Tim ajak me for a really nice lunch in one of the manager’s hse, whom is celebrating Hari Gawai today! So we went…

Her house is actually near mine.. And her house is REALLY prettily decorated with roses. I mean it, EVERYTHING is decorated with the theme of rose such as the flowers, the vase, her table cloth, and those small decorative items. Very flowery. Typical English suburb interior design.

And words could not fairly compliment her food. The Sarawak laksa was heavenly~~ K. Silia made a joke saying that “It’s all pork pork pork”. Hehehe. Well I love it. Her char siew is fat-less (okay, I choosed the fatless one) and satay was as good as the Satay Kajang. Plus she cooked everything on her own, makes it even more tastier.

So now i’m in office, still thinking about lunch. Sigh. Haha. Back to work~!

I decided not to go back this weekend… Pockets are way too lighter and I’ve decided to save up for my upcoming trips….. (Kuching, Penang and perhaps…. NZ?) So here I am, spending a pretty much boring weekend in ulu2 town.. I’m planning to go for squash later.. At least i can shave off some fats… Well I wanna be able to wear WHAT i want in Kuching later.. hehehe..

Lets see what I’ve done today. I spent my morning washing clothes (ok i know, i just throw everything in d machine and press start hehe), pindah my lappy to the living room cuz the connection there is much much MUCH more stable than in my room and chatting and catching up with friends. FYI, today finally ader org VP can chat with me after weeks of busy busy days… and I cleaned my room too! (Alright yes, I asked the makcik cleaner to clean it for me)

Oh and I just found out that Jandi’s wife is 2 months pregnant!

Bismo:
hai
FYI
u n i are becoming aunties
jandi’s wife is 2 months preg

Qi_Hua:
OMG
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

Bismo:
me uncle lah

OH MAN. Now I feel old. My friend is married and having a KID! Gosh. Argh. Sigh. Congrats to Jandi anyways. Can’t wait to see her very pregnant wife during convo in Aug hehehe… Everyone’s getting pregnant.. maybe i shud too… the perfect excuse to escape work haha!

Okay. Enuff crapping. I should hit the showers.