Happy 23rd Birthday~

Aih. Old liao. Yes, I’ve turned 23 on last Monday.

“I see white hair, I see wrinkles!”

Haha.. whatever Well. Just had dinner with FY and UA on 19th.. din reli do much after checking in Equatorial. Received manyyy smses and messages on FB and Fster~! Felt really touched by the amount of people who wished me!

And u know what’s even suprising?? Even the HOTEL knows its my bday! They sent me a choc cheese cake up to my room with candles and matches! Well the ONLY sucky part is that…. they thought I was a GUY! When I checked in, the process took sooooo long.. and I questioned them.. guess wht, they told me they thought I was a guy, so they’ve assigned me to a GUY roomie.. hehe.. wouldn’t hurt if the guy’s hot but oh well, what are my chances of getting a cute hot roomie rite….. So I got a new room all to myself! Hehe.. I guess that’s why they wrote “Mr Lim, Happy Birthday” on my cake. But still, it’s lovely~

Looks yummy isn’t it? I shared it with my training friends.. it was a small group of 15 people.. and in the 5 days, we’ve became close friends… We enjoyed the food tremendously, taking our sweet time eating, sometimes forgetting that we have classes to attend! Haha.. WELL, one of us sed, “We’re like anak orang kaya, coming here to enjoy ourselves with food, gym and sauna on a paid trip!” Hehe.

Ok lahh gonna sleep soon~ Wanna go gym tmr morning! Last day dyy~

You know you love me,
XOXO

am i losing sleep?

Its 2.30am and i’m wide awake. I woke up sweating, and wondered did i have a bad dream in my sleep just now.. but even with the air con blasting, i couldn’t fall back to sleep.

was doing alot of thinking during this time. partially about work, about life and choices and some on love. work, let’s not get started there. it would most prolly bore those who’re reading it.

life and choices. Was speaking to yy about my upcoming trip to nz, and she said i am a rich woman, to be able to afford to pay for partial of the trip myself. i guess when i first knew i’m gonna go nz.. i’ve already put a reservation amount on how much to save every month to be able to pay for at least half of it. plus parents aren’t gonna be so nice to sponsor it again, (i’m working for 7 fricking months dy~!) it’s all about choices, whether you choose to save or to use it. and i choose to save. AND to use it for my NZ trip

Love. Pretty common topic. Some of my friends said I’m very emo, prolly with the recent emo comments i put in my gtalk status.. ex: “if your heart is closed, don’t lock it..” and “Don’t get me wrong if i’m acting so distracted.. i’m thinking about the fireworks that go off when you smile!“. actually i didn’t write it myself.. stole the words from songs that i’ve been listening to lately. esp for the first gtalk status.. a friend commented, “hati must keras”. I guess i shud.. or i’ll get my heart broken over nothing..

Anyways. I realised i’ve been blogging alot lately… guess i’m damn bored here! Beraya in Kerteh is soooo not fun.. (tho i can claim 2 days in lieu) i shall see if there is a need for me to be on duty again next year during Raya times… i reli want to be back home for a long weekend… and yet i’m stuck here. Sigh. Thank god for Renu and Tim to be around this weekend or else i’ll rot alone in ulu-ulu town.

You know you love me,
XOXO

land before time

made me cried. It’s been sometime when i last cried for a cartoon movie… i think the last one was Monster Inc., when Sulley had to leave Boo at the end of the movie. For Land Before Time, it was when Little Foot’s mother died. Damn touching. And when they found the Great Valley.. the reunion of the five dinosaurs’ families was stirring too. Love love love Little Foot.

Boo hoo.

You know you love me,
XOXO

what’s wrong with dressing up?!

I take the smallest pleasure of dressing up and wearing make up to work in daily basis. Believe me, by dressing up a little, it makes me feel a tad better facing the horrible day ahead in office. If i decide to focus on my eyes with heavy eyeshadow, i would lighten it up with nude lip gloss or if i want to focus on my cheeks, i would lighten my eyeshadow. You know, just play with the colors and focus.

And now you would think, what’s it gotta do with my title? I don’t know.. perhaps being paranoid or what.. i feel the older folks here doesn’t like it when someone younger trying to dress up a little… doll up a little… my colleagues have no problem with me dolling up a little but there is an air of awkwardness when the rest of the folks look in my eyes. It doesn’t make me feel so good. But of course it is a different case when you are facing the men, if you know what i mean.

But my question is … WHY? What’s wrong with dressing up? I would love to wear the high waisted skirt paired up with ruffles satin shirt and high black heels. But then I know I would look too out of place in it. So I choosed a chinese collared ruffle shirt, with knitted short sleeve sweater on top of it. AND even then I was criticised for wearing something like a “t-shirt”. Sigh. And roomie was also criticised for wearing her skirt a little higher than knee length. HELLO! We are TALL people okayyyyyyyy.

Albeit all the controversy of dressing up, I still do it. Why? It’s not wrong by the code of conduct anyways. There’s no rule in the book saying I can’t dress up and look nice to work. Its just the code of conduct of the community here, which I fail to abide and honestly couldn’t care less about it. “Kalo tak suke, jgn tgk.”

Btw, this post is inspired by ohkulala’s blog, but hers is a complete opposite of mine.

You know you love me,
XOXO