When things are not going your way..

what would you do? Recently I felt that alot of things happening to me are NOT going my way. For example:-

1. Me wanting to go KK on Sat –> Me having presentation on Sunday at work.
2. Me wanting to take leave on Wed to spend time in KK –> Me having to finish CPB pack and present to special PMC by Thurs at work.
3. Me wanting to go KK itself –> Team leader wanting to cancel meeting (but was fixed upon remaining the same schedule)
4. Me wanting to reach KK on Sunday nite –> Flight was full, so I have to take the 4am flight to KK. (can someone wake me up pls!)
5. Me wanting to clear up her leaves –> Me having “extra” responsibilities at work so gotta be in office as often as possible.

Seriously. Sometimes its tiring to think about what I have to do. But sometimes its good to drown yourself in work. I can easily forget about things that I should not be thinking, which I’ve been thinking alot, lately.

Well at least I’m still going to KK. Better than not able to go, I say.

You know you love me,
XOXO

am i losing sleep?

Its 2.30am and i’m wide awake. I woke up sweating, and wondered did i have a bad dream in my sleep just now.. but even with the air con blasting, i couldn’t fall back to sleep.

was doing alot of thinking during this time. partially about work, about life and choices and some on love. work, let’s not get started there. it would most prolly bore those who’re reading it.

life and choices. Was speaking to yy about my upcoming trip to nz, and she said i am a rich woman, to be able to afford to pay for partial of the trip myself. i guess when i first knew i’m gonna go nz.. i’ve already put a reservation amount on how much to save every month to be able to pay for at least half of it. plus parents aren’t gonna be so nice to sponsor it again, (i’m working for 7 fricking months dy~!) it’s all about choices, whether you choose to save or to use it. and i choose to save. AND to use it for my NZ trip

Love. Pretty common topic. Some of my friends said I’m very emo, prolly with the recent emo comments i put in my gtalk status.. ex: “if your heart is closed, don’t lock it..” and “Don’t get me wrong if i’m acting so distracted.. i’m thinking about the fireworks that go off when you smile!“. actually i didn’t write it myself.. stole the words from songs that i’ve been listening to lately. esp for the first gtalk status.. a friend commented, “hati must keras”. I guess i shud.. or i’ll get my heart broken over nothing..

Anyways. I realised i’ve been blogging alot lately… guess i’m damn bored here! Beraya in Kerteh is soooo not fun.. (tho i can claim 2 days in lieu) i shall see if there is a need for me to be on duty again next year during Raya times… i reli want to be back home for a long weekend… and yet i’m stuck here. Sigh. Thank god for Renu and Tim to be around this weekend or else i’ll rot alone in ulu-ulu town.

You know you love me,
XOXO

And you wonder why..

You don’t get what you want. You get what you deserve.

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Everytime I feel alone, I can blame it on you
And I do…oh..
You got me like a loaded gun, golden sun and sky so blue, oh
We both know, that we wanted, that we both know you left me no choice

You just bring me down
So I’m counting my tears till I get over you.

Sometimes I watch the road go by
Wonder what it is like, oh
To wake up every single is my longest phase you never tried

We both know, we can’t changed it but we both know, we just have to face it..

You just bring me down
So I’m counting my tears till I get over you

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I love this song. Had a chat with a good friend and I’m glad though in my life I’ve lost many friends, I’ve gained many too. And these friends that I’ve gained, I will treasure them dearly. One important lesson I’ve gained throughout this experience is don’t try to be anything but yourself. People will grow to love and appreciate you more.

Not trying to be too philosophical but I will just leave this post with my fav quote from Pipe.

“Our deepest fear is not failure, our deepest fear is our power beyond measure”
-Coach Carter

Pipe almost over…

Pipe is almost over.. We’re now free till tmr morning, and then off we go to Batu Rakit in Terengganu. One more week in Terengganu and that’s the end of Pipe.

A bit of mixed feelings about leaving and coming bek to Kerteh. This has been such a sweet “vacation” that I don’t want to end it so fast. But I guess vacations are not meant to be forever and so Lala-land has gotta stop one day.

Sigh. I’m already missing Permata.

Working..

Yea i know, this blog is dead for months cuz i was SOOOOOOO lazy to update. Plus bro got me addicted to Diablo II, so I was playing tat for awhile and then I got to settle my PEtronas agreement stuff and then the hassle of packing.. yada yada2.

And yeah, right now I’m in the Carigali office in Kerteh. Mmm. Oh yeah, Kerteh. Sometimes I wonder am I in my right mind to agree to step foot in this ulufied town after spending 4 1/2 years in Tronoh. But still, Carigali has a lot of benefits la.. health care, extra travelling allowances .. etc etc.. And since I’m here, I plan to make the best of my time here.. Perhaps a trip to Redang and Perhentian sometime this year.. we’ll see

And if any of you are coming to this desolate town, you might notice there’s a McD here. And this, I can guarantee u, that the McD here is the ugliest McD you can ever find in Malaysia. Seriously. No photos for now, since I’m using Pet wireless and they prohibited a few websites, including Friendster, Facebook, etc. Thank God WordPress is not in their ban list or else this internet will be pretty much useless.

Met a few seniors here and also some juniors.. Tim was here to help me shift my stuff to the hotel.. and I can still remember his look “WAH YOU GOT SO MUCH STUFF!!!” and also Khai Yi and Joey who are here doing internship.. Boy am I glad to see them! They brought me for nasi beriani yday and it was SO SEDAP! Food prices here are generally expensive as the ppl here are mainly Petronas staff or contractors, who are well paid to come here. Imagine nasi goreng special for RM7! Haih…

Ok lah gtg.. meeting at 10am.. will be updating in another time

Happy New Year~!

And once again, I’m so lazy to write a post to conclude all my past resolutions, yada yada~. I know some of them didn’t come true and though some did, I’m just too lazy to do it. Wonder why… perhaps the “unemployment” for a long period is not that good huh?

I have decided not to make any resolutions this year. Or perhaps, I shall make those that can ACTUALLY come true. Hehe. Like, get a job? or stay alive? Hehe. And the f*cking dvds that I bought from Feringhi is not working on my laptop. Sheesh. Potong steam giler. Watch like, half way onli…..

Anyways. You guys have a terrific new year and stay alive! Kudos to all~!

What I’ve done.

Why can’t you just let me do things my way? I know I can be heartless sometimes. I am like that, so if you cannot stand it, pls accept me as how I am. But I know it is impossible for you to do it.

I regret what I’ve done. But time cannot be turned back to undo it.

I’m sorry.

The Best Friend.

Kate starts spilling her problems to Arthur and through her sobs and rants, Arthur could sense that she needs more than just consolation.

“In this peculiar world of ours, we have the leading lady and we have the best friend. You, I could tell is a leading lady. But for some reasons, you are behaving like a best friend. “

Kate stared at Arthur with wonder. This guy is saying all the brutal, brutal words but, somehow, it felt unrealistically true!

“You’re right, I’m supposed to be the leading lady of my own life, for god’s sake!”

She started breathing heavily and wiped her eyes.

“You’re right. I need a change.”

Another year older..

Sigh. One year older now. I’m glad I’m at home to celebrate it.. though the celebration was not as crazy like last year (and not as many ) but I had fun. Dad bought me a cake from Lavender.. Took me so long to choose.. I finally settled on Mango Puree cake. It looks so yummy! hehehe..

The absent minded Dad ask me, “What do you want for ur birthday present?” Hmmm.

Had I been a bad daughter, I would say, “I want this that this that.”

Nah. Why would I ask for more when I already got my phone right? Lolz.. but Dad didn’t realise that was THE bday present. Hahaha. Luckily the bad side of me didn’t emerge and “katuk” dad. Heheh.

Thanks for all the birthday wishes. It all meant something to me.. YOu REMeMBEReD!

(For those who depended on Friendster, it’s the thoughts that count.. heheh.)

Productivity..

Ever since September month started, I’ve been very productive… in work of cuz! I’ve managed to finish up a lot of work, some very early (like CE Individual Assignment, SBE Presentation) and some VERY, VERY last minute (like FYP and ECD Project).

I miss the days where I just sit back and relax, watch dramas the whole day, pigging on food and sleep when I want to.

Speaking about pigging on food, I’ve been having cravings ever since I recovered. Stuff like the Mama Solis’s mee goreng, Pong Piah, Pan Mee and etc.

I think I’m pregnant.